Thursday, 7 March 2013

Telephone Surveys

Okay so I know a lot of people HATE sales calls and surveys over the phone! I can't stand ppi or sales calls either, if I have a ppi claim I'll bloody ring you!! But I will let people introduce what it is they are doing before I decide I'm not interested.. But what I don't get is the people who get really annoyed at surveys...all you need to do is get information, ask for a phone number to make sure it's a proper survey and don't give important details! Obviously I work on the other end of the phone and you would think I get annoyed with the abuse but me and jess just laugh at those people .. The survey is to benefit you!! A while ago we had an energy company who were asking a specific area what sort of energy place they wanted... They ended up putting a new power station there and we found out a few weeks later people had complained...we thought to ourselves, we'll you could have had a day if you would have taken the time to answer the phone and actually listen to what the survey involves. I on the other hand love answering surveys but don't seem to get any! I know it feels annoying cos you get loads of sales and marketing calls and you can't tell what's what but actually listen to what they say and just be careful not to give out anything personal.. Hopefully next time you'll think and make an effort!

Friday, 15 February 2013

So the other night me mum and jess were looking through mums diary of THE year 1993 (for people who don't know me the year daddy died).
It was my fault I really love to know stuff just out of curiosity really because aged 2 I don't have any of my own memories and if it wasn't for pictures (and the resemblance in Dan) I wouldn't even know what he looked like! Sometimes that does upset me but I listen to others people's stories and it builds a picture for me.
Any-who back to the matter at hand, I haven't done a full blog on daddy yet but I'm gonna start with my mama!
Looking though this diary I can honestly say I literally do not know how she did it. First of all I can't imagine losing your best friend and soulmate, that feeling of your world being torn apart and not knowing what's happening. The diary mentioned "not being with him" and hoping he wasn't in pain, even writing this I'm getting upset let alone having to feel that!
THEN realising you have to carry on and look after three young children on your own from now on! I mean how do you cope with your own grief and have to tell a 4yr old daddy's in heaven and later trying to explain that to a 2year old whilst looking after a 4month Old baby thinking you will have to tell him in a couple of years.
Wake up the next morning (not that you got any sleep) and realise its not a horrible nightmare and that ache in your heart and sick to your stomach feeling isn't going anywhere!
Even though we were all crying at this point (and had to keep passing the diary round) we kept reading and it was so hard to watch mum hear it all over again.
Obviously mummy had support form amazing people and thank god for those people but at the end of the day you can only cry yourself to sleep, rethinking you whole life plan without your man and father to your children.
So I say this to you Mummy,
You really are my hero, everything you go through and you come out stronger. I still look to you as a little girl - you are my super mummy and you can do and fix anything and any situation. You have been my mummy, my daddy, my provider, my friend and my super mum and you will be all these things and more for the rest of my life!
I am proud to call you all of those things and will be very happy if I can raise Lola like you have raised us (cos we are alright I think :) ) and I know for definite that daddy watched you help us grow and is so happy that you were his wife and the mother of his children and you chose him to be your prince!
I love you with every part of me mama! <3
Xxxx

Thursday, 24 January 2013

What would you do?

Ok so just watched life on Deathrow with Trevor McDonald, there were two stories that stuck with me..
The man who killed a mother and her 4 ( yes 4) year old daughter for NO reason! He said he regrets what he does and he knows he deserves the death penal and he knows how horrific his crimes were..
This is one of the many reasons I watch criminal minds, to see if there is ANY psychological or scientific explanation behind someone's thinking when they do something like this. He explained he was on Meth and he had intended to rape the mother but when he saw the child he couldn't bring himself to do it.. I mean so you can't rape the mum but you can kill her and the 4year old..what the fuck is wrong with you you sick fuck.. He said he felt he had gone too far and he thought if he killed them he would not go back to prison and get away with it.
How warped can you mind be?! He said he was abused and didn't have a good childhood (however I was quite impressed that he didn't use it as an excuse), but seriously what could you be thinking to kill two innocent people who have let you into their house because they think you are lost! He was very remorseful and I understand that he was on drugs but there must be something inside you that makes you capable of that, how can you let yourself get that bad.. To be soo high on drugs that you can do that!
I think there must be something inside you that after your childhood and tragic events in your life you turn to that, some people do the complete opposite ..
Why is it that some people use it to better themselves and make others proud and others use it to excuse terrible things that they do!?!?

Now on the other hand ( and I know a lot of people will be like wtf your contradicting yourself but hey) this other dude although he was paid (not much) like 700 quid to kill two people he said the reason he did it was because some guy had taken pictures of his family and said its AS easy to kill them as it is to get these photos, he explained that he thought the guy was a big shot and feared for his family's lives.
So in his mind his choice was them or the people he loved.. I can KIND of understand this ( kind of just so none of you go off on one thinking I'm gonna go on a killing spree) ..
He didn't ow these people which I would think makes its easier you COULD rationalise this "they might not have family" blah blah compared to your own family and the ones you love.
I know that regardless of how long I would spend in prison if I thought my family were going to be killed I would make that choice in a heartbeat..
Just imagine (and I know you can never know until it happens) someone had a gun to your mum/dad/sibling or child's head.. And said you kill some randomer or they die..
So what would you do?